I looked for you in every person I met.
“Give me a memory I can use”Adele.
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On this day I sit beside my window,the smell of rain totally liberating I close my eyes and you come to mind I remember how much you loved the smell of rain you know it was really weird so I thought not up until you left I began to love the smell of rain,absorbing lil bits of you a lot of times whenever I smell rain I feel a tight knot in my chest,I want to cry and yell where are you ?
On rainy days like this originally I’m meant to brew my coffee, I laughed so hard when you told me i was forming oyibo and all of those times I teased you saying that milo isn’t tea it’s hot chocolate but today I decided to drink milo just in remembrance of you, I begin to make our low budget toast,my mind is filled with thoughts. The most asked question during the last days of our relationship.
What did I do to you ?” What did we do to ourselves” Why are you acting this way
I began to write to you it has been my way of keeping sane, even though I know my letters wouldn’t get to you I’d somehow still keep it under those many books..
I promise not to listen to Adele again,there’s a particular memory associated with it when you would hum her songs while making me breakfast,I still listen to boys2men it reminds me of how you made my body feel heaven bound… Adele’s I drink wine is my fav now it gives me goosebumps,it’s my reality.
Your absence left me feeling things, left me mourning the things that could have been,I constantly compare the early days of our relationship to last days of our relationship.. what have you done to me ? Why I can’t move on you’re happy I’m not,Why me ?
Your absence created a hole in my chest,everything literally reminds me of you,the places we’ve walked past our favorite restaurant ..I smelt your cologne the other day I panicked,my heart skipped a beat,I made to look for you in the crowd it wasn’t you, it came with relief and disappointment.
I think our relationship ended when I stopped seeing my reflection in your eyes.
I looked for you in other persons I’ve met but I didn’t find you it’s sad we can’t afford to many yous,they didn’t know me like you do it’s crazy I know.
You’ve ruined me.
